Stay With Us Poppyseed!!

So, after tossing and turning since 2am, I took my temperature and then promptly headed into the bathroom for a test at 5am, and there it is, I am pregnant!

It's strange how this pregnancy feels (so far) so different from the last. I don't feel super tired yet, also strange given that I've been waking up here and there at night since about 7dpo. The bloated and gas has been new, yet still manageable.

Here's the kicker, this pregnancy as already progressed longer than the last one!!

More Stairs...

My fav stair so far:

View from the other side

I <3 this one too

On my list to complete...

* Finish filing our taxes

* Change my name at the DMV

* Put in my vacation request

* Buy tickets for Cabo

* Buy a digital HPT...

Double Disappointent

Why do I do this to myself? I tested this morning at 12dpo, bfn. I have to say I am more disappointed in the fact that I let myself down. I had promised to not test until at least 15dpo. I don't know what got into me this morning. Can I blame it on the lack of quality sleep? People on the nest always advice people to wait till you are late to test, I guess most people learn the hard way.

On the other hand, the weekend was beautiful, and K's cleaned the entire house!!

Stair of the day

Slowest Friday Ever...

I broke down this morning as K and I approached the BART station.

I was in a terrible mood yesterday afternoon on our walk with our 4-legged babies. I was pretty shocked to find out from K that our good friends John and Noel are pregnant. They are 10weeks along. The white elephant in the room was the fact that I would have been about 9weeks had we not m/c. Obviously that didn't help my already soured mood. This morning I was ready to embrace the fact that despite my sensitivity, I am truly excited for John&Noel. As I was telling K about this, he had to confessed that he is too, but not without a little jealousy. Moreover, he told John that we m/c!!!

Now that just blew the flood dam wide open. I don't even know why or how, but I just started sobbing uncontrollably. I thought it was because I was mad at k for telling John about the m/c, but I don't understand why I got so mad, but I just couldn't help it, and I hated seeing k's feeling get hurt because I know he didn't know it would be big deal to me to keep it secret. I treed not to over analyze my outburst as a potential pg sign, but I keep going back to the same reasoning.


On top of this, I am also experiencing the worst heartburn today and I hardly ever get heartburn. It started out in the morning, after I had a handful of prezels, continued into lunch; then, I have an itching urge to go walk/hike to rid my feeling of fullness after lunch. I've decided that I am hopeful, I will test next Wendesday.

Still no SLR....

My second attempt to buy the Canon Rebel from a different vendor ended in disappointment again!! It is on back order for 6-8 WEEKS! Now I am will have a len in hand without a camera come this weekend. I really hope it comes before the Cabo trip.

Will the Remodel Be Worth It?

Isn't this a question that's on so many of us home owner's mind? Well, it's on k and mine mind quite a bit lately. Especially since we are not planning on staying at our current home forever, as much as we love it.

Well, I found this house practically across the street from our house for $1,230,000. It is listed as a 4 bed/4 bath @ 3,200+sq (I personally believe that the asking price is a bit of low balling in this neighborhood, but you never know with this market)







If our remodel goes according to plan, we will have a 3bed/3bath, @2100+sq. Which will come with a 350+k price tag if we do most of work ourselves...

We'd be loosing $$ if we sell anything less than 1.15M. Is the market going to sustain a 1.2M 3bed/3bath say by end of 2009?

On a lighter note, we went to Lucky Goldfish on Broadway today and replenished our outside fish/water lily bowl. ~ it makes me very happy, ok, I am ready for some warm weather.

Anticipation!!!!

I am so terrible at dealing with anything that has to do with waiting!!
I just can't sit tight and see what happens, I have to be in the know!!
I don't know how I can survive not finding out the sex!! (which I've already promised k...)

{ I wish I can be more eloquent, but this is the best I can do today. ~ end rant over my frustration at my confusing ff chart....}

"Cabin" in the Woods Sans "moose-bear-fish" Motif

Well, not sure if I can actually refer to this one as a "cabin", but in light of the "Tahoe Cabin" loose category, and lack of better term for the moment, I give myself the poetic licence to go ahead.

Introducing the 2,500 sf "Steel Treehouse" in Tahoe area by jls design





I especially love this steel stair well detail, it show case the indoor/outdoor living style.

View from the exterior


p.s. I superman-ed off my bike yesterday. (This was suppose to be a pleasant and easy ride to the beach!!) I scraped my left palm and sprained my right thumb; came back home with big a bruise on my left knee and right thigh. I can't even remember the last time I was hurt so badly...

Also, I never realized how important my thumb is to some important bodily functions! i.e. buttoning my jeans and hooking up my bra!! just a few examples...

I am just glad I can still type with minimum difficulties.

I did it, sorry k.

I bought these two!! I can't wait till it gets here.

Canon EOS Digital Rebel xti (10.1 mp), I can't justify the doubled cost to go for a xsi (12.1mp)


After a bunch of research, I bought the Canon 28mm-135mm instead of the 28mm-200mm that I blogged before. I gave up some extra zoom for better quality photos...

Armoires for Amore

K's only request for furniture so far has been an Armoire, his favorite wood is walnut, the Artisan from room and board seemed to fit the bill.




I actually like the Calvin (on the left) a little better, but I am a little unsure about the maple since our bed is black walnut.

O lastnight?

I think I did, although due a little unexpected detail lastnight the chance this month is quite slim. There's always hope though. Judging by how excited I am again, I guess I am ready to face the wait.

p.s. I finally returned my unworn wedding shoes today, after more than 6 month.... maybe I can get the Canon after all?

This one is for you, K

"designed by olson sundberg kundig allen architects , delta shelter is located in mazama, washington ~ a tiny commuity in the eastern cascade mountain range 28 miles from the canadian border. this 1,000-square-foot weekend cabin is essentially a steel-clad box on stilts that can be completely shuttered when the owner is away. raised above the ground to minimize potential flood damage {as it's located in a floodplain} and take in 360-degree views of the surrounding forest and mountains, the cabin was conceived as a low-tech, virtually indestructible weekend house. the 20’ x 20’ square footprint rises three stories and is topped by the living room/kitchen with large, 10’ x 18’ steel shutters that can be closed simultaneously using a hand crank. it just won the 2007 american architects award, among many others" - taken from studio wellspring

And looks like polk stanley rowland curzon porter architects stole your Big Dig Market Idea...

Corner Drawers?

Posted today on apartment therapy today

Dear Bean

I visited your blog yesterday, I enjoyed reading it so much that I spent well over an hour reliving our past days. Of course I was pleasantly surprised by some of the re-discoveries.

Some of these posts were written before I started follow your bloggy. Bean, do you realize that your first post is about you and booce? (I knew it! You had more than "friendly" feelings for each other. Although I had no idea about your inner discovery/gut feeling about architecture at the time! I was convinced by your archi genius.)Now, I had to share with K this comment "Squeak is so in love with murph these days" this morning, very discerning. I have to admit it still get the warm and fuzzy feeling thinking about the early days.

To continue on the nostalgic note, I miss your writings and your lyrics(not limited to the literal form). I've said before and will say again, I think you should write more, I like words more than images most of time. Visuals are just so much harder for me to understand sometimes... so write for me more.

love,
squeak

p.s. K still defends vehemently his statement on the plastic forks...

How about that Remodel?

I found the perfect inspiration for the down stairs room!

I love this kitchen

Treehouse Anyone?

K, as a condition of us moving to our dream 10-15 acre haven, I need you to build us this, or something even cooler!

Desire of the Day

Currently I still love my Sony Cyber Shot (Point and Shoot), it gives me these:

Can I please have this?


With this EF 28mm-200mm lense


Because of this: (Phoebe, it's all your fault)


P.S. K's birthday was a blast! I did just fine. I think we are moving well pretty well.

I Like Silence On This Front

Tomorrow is K's birthday, but I find myself dreading the celebration at Matt & Ginger's. Why do I want to flee from all the supports? I am not afraid of thinking about it, in fact I think about it quite a bit. Last night I had to tell J (to my surprise) since I hadn't gotten a chance to tell her the good news first and it felt good, like a rock off my chest. I am starting to realize what I fear the most is to deal with seeing pain and disappointment in the eyes/voice of those of you who heard of the exciting news a few weeks ago.

I feel the love and care and I know you are there for us, without any doubt. I just don't want to have to respond with "I am fine". So, Let's just celebrate the birth of K without a prelude.